Enjoyed a really nice day at home, today. There was absolutely a sense of feelings relaxed, and my spirits have continued to raise after that horrible episode earlier in the week. I've regained some focus and am making plans for moving forward in life. I've realised you don't need a reason to live - you just need to get on with living.
I've returned to the idea of change and it feels like the right thing to do is sell the caravan and build my happy place here instead of viewing it as the stay over place it had become. I need to care about this place once more. I've been planning where I can put furniture and items that will come back from the caravan and I can make this place really nice. So that's my focus now.